Today

I have been to busy of late to blog much and when I tried to blog from my phone on my last post...well you all see how that turned out...really wtc? So anyways, to my blog followers who may be few but i love you all for caring..I have been a busy girl. You all know that I am working as an EMT now and i have been busy with that. I love working on the truck with all the crews because I find them fun and crazy! My favorite run so far has to be the run with me~chelle and john. Simply, because I was with my bff and we had time to talk without interruption.

My body is sooo out of shape that yes the job is physically demanding and I am literally hurting by the end of the day..but i will prevail!

Other than work...well lets see. My ex is now back in my life. As a FRIEND ONLY..he is at a point in his life when he could use a friend and I am at a point in my life when I am strong enough to offer that to him. At least I pray I am patient enough!

Looks as if I am going to be a single woman again soon at least technically...on paper anyways! Let's face it when you are married at the age of 15 and move from one relationship to another immediately, you are NEVER single! I have way to much baggage to ever be declared SINGLE...but as far as the US govmnt will be concerned I will be. How do you walk away from a man who is dependant upon you, loves you, and been with for 15 years?? Just because some court declares you divorced? I dont think so..not in my world.

In my world. Everyone remains friends even if they stabbed you in the back. Lovers never really leave they just wait for another day. Noone dies they simply just go away. In my world there is no such thing as a grudge but forgive and forget because life is to precious and to short not to be nice and say thank you may i have another!

In my world we are all stupid! However, we are blissful in our ignorance.

? so they are swimming and havin fun. I am surviving, regardless of all my best efforts at self-sabotage!! Lol...kidding!! Life is good, well i choose to

? ur "roommate" to feed ur fish while your away, but you cant ask him to clean the tank. My bad...lol!!! They survived and have a clean new environment now

? My fish are still alive and so am i but i truly dont know how??? I came home after being gone and my fish were swimming in sludge...apparently u can ask

Ponderings

Hello bloggers! I was just sitting here pondering my life. I am extremely excited about the new chapter, entitled, EMS! Even though I have worked as a dispatcher four years, now i am seeing it from the other side, the heart and soul of EMS is life on the truck! Of course, I have not been "blooded" yet and I truly hope that I am an extremely old veteran before that happens! I am perfectly content to play taxi! I have discovered that no matter how hard the shift or difficult the call, if your partner is cool then everything is gonna be ok. Just breath...also if they are having a bad day..just go with the flow and ditto to them!

Embarrassing

This is for you Me~chelle...I would never have thought to tell something so embarrassing on myself on my blog. However, after sending this message to my BFF she insisted (thanks me~chelle) that i share it with the world in general! So here goes as copied from my sent box....

me speaking to me~chelle....

"I just went outside to smoke and had a rumble in the jungle so I headed in to visit mr. Porcelin. I almost poo'ed myself before i could get my thong unwedged...that might be a sign I need to consider granny panties...wat do you think??"

Personally I love my thongs and normally they just slide on and off sooo easily...but I guess I just squeezed a little tooo hard in my rush to the bathroom and things went places they should not be!!! To that all I can say in my defense...buns of steel baby....buns of STEEL!!! :)

BigBrother

Ok, so im totally not a Rachel fan on the Big Brother show...I mean that giggle after EVERY sentence is sooo annoying that i want to shove a dirty jock strap in her mouth every time i hear it...please....REALLY??? She has to be the dumbest person in there....or so i thought....how did she win that competition?? Brittany...honey...41 gallons? really?? Go play with your barbie dolls sweety...let the big kids play the hard games...As for Brendan...I agree with Annie..he is one smart cookie...pretty dang fine too. Think about it..alone in the house all these hot women and well..a guys got needs. Who you gonna pick for your toy, playa? You got it..I said it, Rachel there is only one thing he sees when he looking at you..you rock those boobs..but your giving big boobed women a bad name,you know we can show cleavage and intelligence at the same time! I suppose we will see how well you handle HOH then I might revise my opinion of you. Looking forward to sunday! :) play the game well kiddos....big brother is watching!

Congratulations

Today is a super great day!

Some semi-hard work, (i say that because lets face it, if i had've worked harder then it would'nt have taken two trys..) I have passed national exams and am now a certified EMT! (emergency medical techinician) YAY me...

Honestly, I am super jazzed about the whole thing. Scared to death and anxious to learn lots. I know enough to make me stupid but thankfully know enough also to make me aware of my stupidity! Personally, i think that is a good thing.

I love EMS...I love my employer and all the people i work with! I went into this field on a fluke and loved it. I am not sure i would love it though working anywhere else. Hopefully, I wont have to worry about that for awhile though becuase i am just happy to be with the company that I love! Working in EMS even for the patients who consider us (glorified taxi drivers) is the greatest achievment of my life. To me its more than a job, its a way of life.

Pray for me, tomorrow I get to drive an ambulance!!!

लेट nights

I spent the day today lazing about the house did a little bit of cleaning (piddling) as i call it. After a day of that i sat outside on my porch and listened to the crickets chirping and watching the stars twinkle! I am very proud of my home and the quiet relaxing atmosphere here. Of course the hustle n bustle of the city is still appealing to me but at this point in my life i am taking advantage of both! Work in the city and retire home on days ive nothing to do. Awe the simple pleasures of life. I couldnt think of a better way to end the day then a nice hot bubble bath in my wonderfully clean bathroom. Now im laying back with a good book and thought to share these joys with those of my fellow bloggers. After all, its not every monday that is so very peaceful!

Some pics..

A MOMENT IN TIME..

Here are some pics that i took of the night sky. It was too lovely not to share. I took these with my phone so the colors did not come out as well as i had hoped but you can still see it is marvelous!

This is my darling Audie, she was checking to see if there were any ready to be picked! She is so adorable. I miss her these days...

My beautiful flowers...

A fish life...

It's official I have fish!! woohoo...

Ok, I know that this is probably not the biggest event that i feel it is. Most people have a fish tank as children and if they love it they continue the hobby into their adulthood. I on the other hand have never had fish that actually required more than a small fish bowl!!

I took my time and purchased the items needed and researched the setup and care of my fish and then the BIG day arrived. I bought the fish and put them in my tank. I am sooo proud! LOL...

I know these Parrot Cichlids need more room than this small five gallon tank so now I am in the market for a bigger tank! However, for the time being, Flitter N Flutter, (yes that is their names) are having fun in their new home!

I do want to tattle on myself, because I want everyone to know that yes i have stupid moments and i am not afraid to laugh at myself so please feel free to laugh along with me. After four days of joyfully watching my sweet fish, I noticed their tank was becoming very filthy! I reread the instructions, and yes it clearly stated that the filter was to be changed every 30 days. So i replaced it and pondered....Was my fish extraordinarily slobbish? Did i choose the two messiest fish out of the entire tank? Were my fish hormonal teens that loved living in their own filth and refuse to clean their room? Possibly, i might need an algae eater of some kind. Another trip to the store and another conversation with everyone that will listen and still I was clueless. NOO way was I going to clean that tank once a week. That was asking way to much!! So I did the only thing that I knew to do. I changed the filter. As I was replacing it, low n behold..something was amiss!!! The first filter was in backwards..soooo the water was not getting filtered at all!!! Wow, did I ever feel like a major idiot! So now two days later my fish are clean and happy, once again swimming and making adorable faces, aweeeee!