Today

I have been to busy of late to blog much and when I tried to blog from my phone on my last post...well you all see how that turned out...really wtc? So anyways, to my blog followers who may be few but i love you all for caring..I have been a busy girl. You all know that I am working as an EMT now and i have been busy with that. I love working on the truck with all the crews because I find them fun and crazy! My favorite run so far has to be the run with me~chelle and john. Simply, because I was with my bff and we had time to talk without interruption.

My body is sooo out of shape that yes the job is physically demanding and I am literally hurting by the end of the day..but i will prevail!

Other than work...well lets see. My ex is now back in my life. As a FRIEND ONLY..he is at a point in his life when he could use a friend and I am at a point in my life when I am strong enough to offer that to him. At least I pray I am patient enough!

Looks as if I am going to be a single woman again soon at least technically...on paper anyways! Let's face it when you are married at the age of 15 and move from one relationship to another immediately, you are NEVER single! I have way to much baggage to ever be declared SINGLE...but as far as the US govmnt will be concerned I will be. How do you walk away from a man who is dependant upon you, loves you, and been with for 15 years?? Just because some court declares you divorced? I dont think so..not in my world.

In my world. Everyone remains friends even if they stabbed you in the back. Lovers never really leave they just wait for another day. Noone dies they simply just go away. In my world there is no such thing as a grudge but forgive and forget because life is to precious and to short not to be nice and say thank you may i have another!

In my world we are all stupid! However, we are blissful in our ignorance.

? so they are swimming and havin fun. I am surviving, regardless of all my best efforts at self-sabotage!! Lol...kidding!! Life is good, well i choose to

? ur "roommate" to feed ur fish while your away, but you cant ask him to clean the tank. My bad...lol!!! They survived and have a clean new environment now

? My fish are still alive and so am i but i truly dont know how??? I came home after being gone and my fish were swimming in sludge...apparently u can ask

Ponderings

Hello bloggers! I was just sitting here pondering my life. I am extremely excited about the new chapter, entitled, EMS! Even though I have worked as a dispatcher four years, now i am seeing it from the other side, the heart and soul of EMS is life on the truck! Of course, I have not been "blooded" yet and I truly hope that I am an extremely old veteran before that happens! I am perfectly content to play taxi! I have discovered that no matter how hard the shift or difficult the call, if your partner is cool then everything is gonna be ok. Just breath...also if they are having a bad day..just go with the flow and ditto to them!

Embarrassing

This is for you Me~chelle...I would never have thought to tell something so embarrassing on myself on my blog. However, after sending this message to my BFF she insisted (thanks me~chelle) that i share it with the world in general! So here goes as copied from my sent box....

me speaking to me~chelle....

"I just went outside to smoke and had a rumble in the jungle so I headed in to visit mr. Porcelin. I almost poo'ed myself before i could get my thong unwedged...that might be a sign I need to consider granny panties...wat do you think??"

Personally I love my thongs and normally they just slide on and off sooo easily...but I guess I just squeezed a little tooo hard in my rush to the bathroom and things went places they should not be!!! To that all I can say in my defense...buns of steel baby....buns of STEEL!!! :)

BigBrother

Ok, so im totally not a Rachel fan on the Big Brother show...I mean that giggle after EVERY sentence is sooo annoying that i want to shove a dirty jock strap in her mouth every time i hear it...please....REALLY??? She has to be the dumbest person in there....or so i thought....how did she win that competition?? Brittany...honey...41 gallons? really?? Go play with your barbie dolls sweety...let the big kids play the hard games...As for Brendan...I agree with Annie..he is one smart cookie...pretty dang fine too. Think about it..alone in the house all these hot women and well..a guys got needs. Who you gonna pick for your toy, playa? You got it..I said it, Rachel there is only one thing he sees when he looking at you..you rock those boobs..but your giving big boobed women a bad name,you know we can show cleavage and intelligence at the same time! I suppose we will see how well you handle HOH then I might revise my opinion of you. Looking forward to sunday! :) play the game well kiddos....big brother is watching!