Busy Friday!

Today is friday and payday, which means paying bills! Yay...I really hate it but everyones got to do it! I was thinking, would'nt it be nice if i had my own personal accountant? Then I realized, it would just mean more work for me, because I would'nt just blindly allow someone to manage my money.

I am excited about today, (that is after i pay the bills), one of my best friends is back in town. He has been out of the country working. I am so excited to have J back, I cant wait to catch up! I am sure he has so many interesting things to tell, what he saw, things he did! So hopefully if the time change and jet lag doesnt knock him out for days, we will be having lunch today! Yay!

Then I am going north for the weekend and spending the evening with R because we are going to the movies, dinner and I am buying fish for my fish tank! A week ago bought a 5 gallon tank, set it up per the directions on all my equipment. I have never had anything more than a single bowl of gold fish or beta. So jumping head first into a salt water tank has been a confusing journey for me. You see i want, blood parrot cichlids. They are a salt water fish. I have read article after article on tank set up and i get so confused in all the chemistry crap! After all that i find an article that tells me the cichlids can grow up to 10 in long!! WTCM?? (wtcm=wat the crap man)Really? I only bought a 5 gal tank! sighs...so im thinking ok, i may need a different kind of fish! I may not have my pH levels right, my tank might kill my fish anyways...but you know what?!? I am still going to buy 2 Cichlids and I am going to put them in my tiny little tank and I am going to care for them as instructed by my tank manual and for better or worse, we shall see what will happen. I know, poor little fish!

Have a great Friday and an even better weekend! =)

Let's talk MOVIES!!!

For anyone who really knows me, they know that i LOVE LOVE LOVE great movies, good movies even bad movies! Ladies and Gentleman let me introduce...OMG can you believe it! Yes they did they put Adam Sandler, Kevin James, Chris Rock, David Spade and Rob Schnieder in one, IM talking ONE movie! With a cast like that, you would have to be a very bad writer to sink a movie! "Grown UPs" HA like any of those guys ever grew up in real life!!! (not unlike myself)

That is right folks, it is coming out friday and I can't wait to see it! I am fully prepared to take the necessary precautions while attending the theater. 1. Sit on bottom row (as to not roll to my death caused from hysterical laughter) 2. Tissues (to wipe the tears that always follow a hysterical onslaught of gut wrenching laughter) 3. Fresh change of clothes (as I am positive i may piddle a little when reaching the maximum of my laughing abilities! 4. Friend (NEVER take a date (who you're trying to impress) to such a movie! So check, check, check, i'm all set, i've got an extra pull-up and ready for the comedy ride of the year!!

These people are NUTS!

Again, I am sitting here in this cozy lofty room ! (ahh so nice) :) I have been doing a bit of studying but the blog pulls me ..i see the flash, flash, flash of the laptop light beckoning me to come and see what my fellow bloggers have to say. So three hours later i find I have not been as productive on my studying as i should have been. I can't say that it was a wasted three hours because i have read some amazing blogs. People are absolutely NUTs as a whole. I read blogs that made me laugh, sigh, cry, and even become a little educated! I have discovered that I love opinionated people in the written form, of course, verbally not so much! Don't get me wrong, I reserve the right to be opinionated no matter how i express it! I sincerely hope you continue being so too! Otherwise, how would I entertain myself every day?

I really do believe people are nuts, but i have decided that it is a defense mechanism which allows us to tolerate the insanities of this world! What I am saying, I promise, I do have a point..if your nuts your absolutely normal! After reading some posts, i even believe being crazy is the latest trend! I have never been a trendsetter, but for crazy, i am one of the originals!

I would hate to see the world as black or white or even through rose colored glasses. Give me the rainbow, throw all the quirks and screwballs you can because I have a great defense, I am a crazy woman and I am not ashamed to show it!

If I only had a brain..

Today the neverending song that keeps playing on my ipod, that must be implanted in my brain, is "If i only had a brain" from the wizard of oz! Imagine that since I have spent most of this day studying! Have you ever noticed how somethings just stick in your mind but yet when your actually studying a specific subject you have to read it over and over and over again until maybe it sticks? Well, that is the way with me. I can read a blog, novel, anything that is fiction of course and boom..i will forever know it! But you hand me a medical book and wham..i'm a rag doll looking for my brain!

I enjoy sitting here in this lofty room quiet to the point of i hear creaking in the walls...haha...I know i am not alone, yet i feel totally secluded. It is very refreshing to know that it is just me, my books, my laptop and nothing more. I truly need nothing else!

Like all good things my time here is over and i need to leave...but before I do I wanted to share something with my readers..courtesy of Me~chelle! If you have'nt before, you should Google, Google headquarters and check out their offices.....OMG...I love you Google can I PLEASE come to work for you???

What my Father taught me!

This post is attributed to Jessica (blog The Writing Life Too), she suggested this as a writing prompt. I am going to attempt to try it! (afterthought..its more of an introduction to my dad)

Happy Fathers Day...

My father died just before my 21st birthday. I wish I had spent more Fathers day's or even more days in general with my father. I have to admit, there was alot about him I did'nt know. He was a very hard person to know. In fact I am convinced now that he was most likely bi-polar. He could snap on a dime. We always just thought he had a bad temper, which he did! He was also very loving, in his own way. I can remember hot summer evenings, sitting in front of box fans and he would reach over and take my hand. Not really talking just sitting. I always loved holding my Fathers hand. He had a good size paw and it was calloused. I always use to think, my daddy is a hard worker. I dont remember him ever really having a permanant job, because he couldnt take orders AT ALL..my daddy was always right! haha...but he was a hard worker. He woke early and after coffee he was outside working doing something. Chopping wood (he had a woodstove for heat) tinkering on his truck, working in his garage or maybe building a room onto his house. Possibly even working in his garden. At the time i really didnt like going out and picking vegetables, but now i would do anything to get to pick tomatoes with my daddy again.

I never remember my daddy going to church. He believed in God though, he always had his Bible laying on the coffee table. I never remember seeing him read it. But he said he had read it several times front to back. I also know when he got mad about some so called hyprocrite he could recite some verses. I never saw my father kneel in prayer but many times i caught him staring out the window into the sky and seeing his lips move silently. Once i even asked him who he was talking to and he just said, noone just moving my lips from a nervous habit. I believed him then, but now i really think that was the way he prayed. Maybe in part because i find myself doing the very same thing so often.

I dont really know if my dad could be accused of being a dreamer, maybe he was and his dont get to close to me demeaner just hid that from the world. I know he was very talented though. My dad could play music, and he did so very often.

My youngest memory of my Father was ... We were all of us at a family friends house. (growing up my parents and their friends would go every weekend to each others house and sit and play music, kids playing outside catching fireflys) It was a small sitting room so everyone was crammed in and it was late. I was tired from running around the yard all evening and eating watermelon. Well there was no where for me to sit and i wanted my daddy. I am sure of that since i wasnt sitting on someones lap! So i remember i crawled under his chair (he was sitting in a kitchen table chair) and i fell asleep watching his foot tapping to the music. I remember waking up when he picked me up and i laid my head on his shoulder. I also remember thinking how much i loved his smell. Combination of Old Spice, cigerattes, and coffee! pause..here ..i cant see the screen from my tears...I dont know how old i was but i was small enough to fit under that kitchen chair. I would guess i was under five years old.

I choose to remember the older memories of my Father, becuase i am afraid i was'nt a very good daughter in the years just before his death. He told me once in the year that he died. I was visiting and he said i should come more often. Well i lived out of town so i said well daddy, I dont get down here very much. He called me on that one becuase he said, well i know you visit your mom and dont stop by here, how come? He had me there. I did go and visit my mother (yes they were divorced) and sisters and only stopped by daddy's when i needed something or just didnt have anything else to do. So i said well when im visiting i just have so many people to see that i dont get to see everyone. That was the truth, but i'm sure he heard it as, mom's house was more important. I loved my daddy but we really didnt have a lot to talk about and then i usually felt bad becuase i wanted to leave so quickly. We just didnt have a lot in common, i was young and didnt want to just sit there and stare at the walls. It's harsh but true. He knew it, and I know he forgave me for it.

In hindsight, i would sit there forever staring at the walls if i could hold his hand again.

Pause again tears...you never get over losing a parent, you just learn to live through the pain.

Happy Father's Day, wherever you are daddy....I love you always!

Coke vs. Water

I received this in an email sent to me by a friend who knows i drink way to much soda! Thank you Me~chelle for loving me enough to share!

Coke vs Water~Here are some of the benefits of drinking water and some interesting things about coke.

This is very interesting.....

Water

1. 75% of Americans are chronically dehydrated. This most likely applies to half the worlds population.
2. In 37% of Americans, the thirst mechanism is so weak that it is often mistaken for hunger.
3. Even mild dehydration will slow down your metabolism as much as 3%.
4. One glass of water will shut down midnight hunger pangs for almost 100% of the dieters studied in a University of Washington study.
5. Lack of water is the number 1 trigger of daytime fatigue.
6. Preliminary research indicates that 8-10 glasses of water a day could significantly ease back and joint pain for up to 80% of sufferers.
7. A mere 2% drop in body water can trigger fuzzy short-term memory, trouble with basic math, and difficulty focusing on the computer screen or on a printed page.
8. Drinking 5 glasses of water daily decreases the risk of colon cancer by 45%, plus it can slash the risk of breast cancer by 79%, and one is 50% less likely to develop bladder cancer.
Are you drinking the amount of water you should every day?

Coke

1. In many states (in the USA) the highway patrol carries two gallons of Coke in the truck to remove blood from the highway after a car accident.
2. You can put a T-bone steak in a bowl of coke and it will be gone in two days.
3. To clean a toilet: Pour a can of Coke into the toilet bowl and let it sit for one hour, then flush clean. The citric acid in Coke removes stains from vitreous China.
4. To remove rust spots from chrome car bumpers: Rub the bumper with a rumpled-up piece of aluminium foil dipped in Coke.
5. To clean corrosion from car battery terminals: Pour a can of Coke over the terminals to bubble away the corrosion.
6. To loosen a rusted bolt: Apply a cloth soaked in Coca-Cola to the rusted bolt for several minutes.
7. To remove grease from clothes: Empty a can of coke into a load of greasy clothes, add detergent, and run through a regular cycle. The Coke will help loosen grease stains. It will also clean road haze from your windshield.
8. The active ingredient in Coke is phosphoric acid. Its pH is 2.8. It will dissolve a nail in about 4 days. Phosphoric acid also leaches calcium from bones and is a major contributor to the rising increase in osteoporosis.
9. To carry Coke syrup (the concentrate) the commercial truck must use the hazardous material place cards reserved for highly corrosive materials.
10. The distributors of Coke have been using it to clean the engines of their trucks for about 20 years!
Drink more water!

ME vs. COKE

do you know that i think coke/soda (I should clarify i am speaking of Soda!) should be as illegal as marijuana, i dont smoke it, but i think it might be healthier than coke! Because it has much further health risks associated with it..at least it should not be sold as a food/beverage product. They should market the "syrup" as a corrosive commercial product. Will they? No, becuase the cost of sales would plummet. Will they even consider lowering the pH to a lesser density for our health? NOPE! I would'nt doubt, if it is'nt a conspiracy by the government to reduce the population size by allowing these products to be sold, knowing full well they are addict forming and we will be like lambs to the slaughter! We should start a petition! YES, i drink more than my share of sodas, i smoke cigarettes and I am very unhealthy for it! Do I get angry when i see signs asking me to quit, NOPE, do i mind going to a lesser populated area to smoke, NOPE! I know I need to stop, it is my freedom to do it, therefore it is myself i am harming. Do I want my rights taken away, HELL NO, would i like a little less temptation, HELL YES! That is all I am saying..Leave it out there if you must but if its soo unhealthy for us...dont cram it down our throats with advertising and then be shocked when we actually purchase it! I accept responsibility for my bad habits, should'nt the corporations making these items be responsible too? Why can't they choose to make it a little better? Why must we be slammed with the marketing of these "items" until all we think about is grabbing a coke and lighting up! At least dont sell them every five feet from where i happen to be standing, I guarantee if i had to drive 20 miles to buy a coke/cig/or any other bad thing, i will be doing a lot less of it...but then again that would defeat the ultimate purpose which is to make someone very very rich while we are slowly dying. So laugh you rich someone, because after all this is America, land of the free, and you can rest assured tonight no blame will be thrown at your feet because I chose to kill my body with your poisons!

Ranting..

How is possible to be so phyiscally attuned to a man that just one look and you each know exactly what the other is wanting? Why can't I have that kind of physical attraction with a man who also stimulates my mind as well? Sexual awareness makes me stupid. It really is very frustrating when I have so much I want to say, but when I look into his eyes or just feel his presence near me, my mind goes blank and I become this swooning romantic idiot to the first degree!! I wonder if this is just happening to me or if women every where have been afflicted with this same curse? I understand it happening to lovesmitten teenagers..but come on..I like to believe that being an adult who is not exactly "hmm, mm" naive to the ways of the world, this craziness seems absolutely absurd. I would love some input on this, comments are not only welcome but sincerely needed! Thanks..

Luck of the Draw

I know i have been negligent of writing these past days. However, been busy with the family! Autumn contracted poison oak and she was very generous to share it with me. Thank you my darling! After that I went on a cleaning spree at my house which lasted long enough to clean out my bedroom and catching up all the laundry..(whew, did not realize how much laundry 3 small kids can accumulate!)..We did have fun though, Autumn and I cleaned out my cedar chest and it was like a real treasure hunt! She found my old Egyptian queen Halloween costume and dressed up. She's so cute.

I would upload some pics to this blog but I have'nt quite discovered how as of yet. Any suggestions??

My sister returned so now I am kidless, (is that really a word?) I do miss them very much but it does feel good to be back working!

I love working weekends with S&P they are the best gals ever! S is such a stick of dynomite and a complete workaholic, I wont even pretend to keep up with her. She did start a cleaning frenzy here at the crew quarters and therefore we all had a busy morning! Felt good to be cleaning all those dusty corners and disposing of some yucky junk! I know i will sleep much better tonight for it!

I have to be the luckiest person in the world. I have a great family (who are all absolutely insane and drive me nuts!) I have awesome friends that would and have traveled the extra mile to help me out of a pinch! I have an awesome job (easiest ever) I can do exactly what i love while spending time with great folks and be part of spreading a little compassion to the world. Yep, I would say i have been dealt a good hand! The luck of the draw. Who knows where I will go from here but I am excited to find out ....

Life is a grand adventure and I feel sorry for those that hide from it!

Adventures of autumn..so tonight i told autumn to go brush her teeth..few minutes later i checked on her she was washin all the toothbrushes with handsoap becuz they were "dirty" lol she never ceases to amaze me. At least i caught her before she colored in my bible! She said it needed more colors! When she gets in trouble she now bats her big blue eyes and says well give me a kiss! Lmao!! She is five and you have to watch her constantly becuz she will find something to do or get into that she really shouldnt the child has no fear seriously'!! But i love her even when she is absolutely impossible!! Every day is a new adventure with autumn!

brand new day..

Welcome to a brand new day.....i think that is a song or something from a news program, im not sure but it keeps playing over and over in my head like a record stuck!

I am leaving the city in just a few, headed back to the country. I am going after those sweet adorable completely rotten children. No, not mine, but my sisters. They have been staying with me. Long story dont ask...anyways...going to take them swimming in the creek today. Grandma bought them new swimsuits for the summer and they are all soo excited. The twins, Jason and Destiny are six and Autumn is five. Audi as i call her thinks she belongs to me. We bonded when she was first born and its been that way all her life. She does have me twisted around her little pudgy finger. I think when she grows up she will be an investigative reporter because the child can ask questions about why she is asking questions. She completely wears me out mentally! Okay, Me~chelle if your reading this, no smart remark need be inserted here.. =)

So as much as i hate leaving this office i call my little cave. I need sunlight and fresh air.

Ok, please turn the ipod off in my head...i cant take that forever looping song. (Welcome to a brand new day) grrrr...

munchies...

June 12, 2010

Yes, it is the middle of the night. 2:21 a.m. to be exact, and here i sit with a bowl of kettle corn, my glasses propped on my nose..the tv humming in the background and i sit at the desk..surfing the net reading blogs and sending emails to friends. Why? Because i have the middle of the night munchies...not really...i just dont like being in bed alone. When I wake up and there is noone there to snuggle next to, i just get up and make my way to the computer, the tv, the refrigerator..these are my nighttime buddies...

Philosophy is the study of general and fundamental problems concerning matters such as existence, knowledge, values, reason, mind, and language.

Nighttime is when i become the philospher...since my "buddies" dont talk back to me. I spend to much time thinking. I wonder if the great philosphers from Socrates to Albert Einstein often spent time in the middle of the night with their chosen "buddies" thinking. I hope so, because that gives me hope that all these hours of lost sleep may be beneficial some day..not that i am saying i aspire to be a great philosopher. I would not be so arrogant as to classify myself with greats such as Socrates. (smiles to self) I just had a mental image of myself with Albert Einstein hair...ok so i think i am getting tired now.

I say goodnight to all my "buddies" and thank you once again for being there when i came from my bed, furry slippers and all!

If only...

If only i could have what i wanted..
If only i could see you as much as i liked..
If only i could talk to you morning, noon, night!

If only i could kiss your lips each time you came near...
If only i could hear your breathing when you lay at rest..
If only i could know the time when you would be arriving home!

If only i could love you forever and know that love was returned..
If only i could be with you together forever!

If only we shared the same continent..
If only our love will pass the test of time....
If only i am yours and you were mine!

Because i miss you more each day....it is hard having my love so far away!

The Great Procrastinator..

June 11, 2010 still....
Yes this is me arguing with myself.......

Seriously, what am I waiting for? Sometimes i just want to call myself, Scarlett, (Gone with the Wind flashback) and get it over with...(I put my hand to my brow and drawl in that well known southern dialect....while i mentally repeat..."I'll think about that tomorrow" sighss.....geeezzz..get off the bench and play already!

Every day i think i could do this...I could do that...when am I going to put one foot in front of other, make a few decisions and meet life head on??? Trust me, I have lived an eventful life..but it hasnt been the exciting whirlwind of adventures I always crave...I hate when other people start spouting excuses but yet i seem to always have my fair share..someone please save me from myself and invent the couch potatoe cure???

Never to late to learn..

June 11, 2010

Wow, its really never to late to learn! I have been giving considerable thought to starting my own blog. For years i have kept a diary, I am obsessed with Facebook...but somehow I was just unsatisfied with these endeavors. I feel like I have something to say, it does'nt matter if anyone reads (allthought secretly i hope you do) I have to blog for myself. So three hours ago I began my journey to my own blog and here we are...whew...can i get an AMEN to how difficult it sometimes is just to accomplish a small task? Or perhaps, it is just me..

I am enjoying a great day sitting here at work. Every day i have the opportunity to earn money is a good day, right? Let's face it, everyone is suffering (well most) from the poor economy. I am thankful because right now i have survived lay off, unemployment, and am now trying to survive the governments unemployement cutbacks. Anyways, my point here (not being to complain about the government) was that I am very thankful for the blessing i have! Yesterday, i picked up a hitchhiker (yea yea i know stupid) but he had a sad story...he is working full-time as plumber cant afford to fix his truck and has used all his savings..he is working for half the salary he was earning last year..just to keep his job and survive! That is sad...but as i hate to leave on such a depressing thought i will share one last thing that happened to me yesterday.

It is ok, i can and will laugh at myself. I woke up running late as usual...i am rushing around the house...my mom calls and says c'mon i am waiting..what do i do i cant find my car keys anywhere..i search the car, i clean it out in hopes they are buried under the trash in my dumpster i call a car. Not there..i search the house..my purse..NO where i can see!!! What do i do?? Well i am in full swing panic mode now and feel the urge to scream...my hands fist and before i can start swinging (no not really) i cram them into my pockets and could it be?? Nooo..Yesss there in my left hand were my keys buried deep in my pocket. Yes, i have moments every day when i feel i have lost my mind. The laughter keeps me sane...